Of course, this feeling of pride and accomplishment only lasts for a couple seconds, as most. It sinks in that I have failed my one attempt at a serious relationship, have no idea what I am going to do for the rest of my life and can't dance, sing or play a musical instrument worth a damn.

I wonder to myself, will I ever be happy, satisfied, complete? Will I ever be content with my life and situation? Will that feeling of accomplishment ever be more than fleeting? If so, would my life even be worth living? Without the need to one-up myself, the drive to prove I'm better than what I am currently worth, would any of this be worth it? Would I sit in a chair, doing nothing new, nothing exciting, the same thing day in and day out?

When I get a 97% on a paper I whine and beat myself up for not studying hard enough. When I notice the raise on my pay cheque, I am not happy but wonder what I could do to make it higher next year. When someone tells me I'm pretty I feel I must be ugly because they didn't say I was beautiful. When someone tells me they are starting to feel close to me, I am ashamed I couldn't make myself closer.

I conclude from this that it is not a bad thing I look down on myself. I am doing myself a favour never being satisfied with my test scores, grades, work ethic, relationships, talents and skills. I can only better myself this way. It must be a good thing." />
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Posted 21 January 2002, 11.59 am by marilee

As I revise my resume, stare at it, proof-read it, and revise it some more I think to myself, "I haven't done that badly." Receptionist, Retail Sales Clerk, Concession Manager, Ticket Sales. All high-paying jobs for what they are, always made a couple dollars more than minimum. Committed, involved, active, not to mention dearly loved (but I would never put that on my resume) at my highschool. A wide range of computer skills. Office skills and retail skills. Great references.

Of course, this feeling of pride and accomplishment only lasts for a couple seconds, as most. It sinks in that I have failed my one attempt at a serious relationship, have no idea what I am going to do for the rest of my life and can't dance, sing or play a musical instrument worth a damn.

I wonder to myself, will I ever be happy, satisfied, complete? Will I ever be content with my life and situation? Will that feeling of accomplishment ever be more than fleeting? If so, would my life even be worth living? Without the need to one-up myself, the drive to prove I'm better than what I am currently worth, would any of this be worth it? Would I sit in a chair, doing nothing new, nothing exciting, the same thing day in and day out?

When I get a 97% on a paper I whine and beat myself up for not studying hard enough. When I notice the raise on my pay cheque, I am not happy but wonder what I could do to make it higher next year. When someone tells me I'm pretty I feel I must be ugly because they didn't say I was beautiful. When someone tells me they are starting to feel close to me, I am ashamed I couldn't make myself closer.

I conclude from this that it is not a bad thing I look down on myself. I am doing myself a favour never being satisfied with my test scores, grades, work ethic, relationships, talents and skills. I can only better myself this way. It must be a good thing.

DemonAnton
on 21 January 2002, 1.14 pm
Not necessarily. You may better yourself but when will the time come when you sit back, relax and admire eveything you've accomplished?

By all means try to better yourself but also take time to stop and be pleased with yourself.

You have to let yourself be happy. Only when you admire your achievemnets will you be able to tell if you're happy enough to just rest on your laurels. You may find you're still missing something and then you can persue that goal with more vigour because you know it will help you towards happiness


Sunny2Tall
on 21 January 2002, 3.59 pm
I think its great that you have the ability to say "well, I could've done better," and it definately promotes you to do so, but like Ant said there should be times when you can just sit back and say "look at what I've accomplished, not everyone has done this, but I did."
Happiness is a funny thing. It always seems when you want to be or should be happy you're depressed. You just got to catch it off gaurd, like a leprechaun.


Chris
on 21 January 2002, 11.20 pm
You have to embrace all that is good about yourself too! Praise and criticism are no more meaningful than when they come from within yourself, so give yourself a break Dorothy...this sure doesnt look like Kansas


monkey_pilot
on 25 January 2002, 9.48 am
You will fail in life and you will learn from it. Not everything will go perfectly. You will not always get the highest scores or the biggest raises. I admire anyone who can look at themselves and see where they have room for improvement. But there comes a time when you can be too critical of yourself and when that happens you will never be happy. I know how you feel because I've been there. I can't dance, I could sing if I could stop being so self concious. I don't find myself particularly attractive although I've been told I'm cute by many girls. I also have failed in the one serious relationship I have been in. But I have learned from it. And I'm ready for the next serious relationship. By the way, if I were to call you cute instead of beautiful, would you be upset? some people use different words to express the same thing so don't be so hard on yourself if you don't get the word you were looking for. And I have to disagree with you. It is a bad thing to look down on yourself. You should always look upon yourself in a positive light but also know where you have room for improvement. If you are never satisfied, you will never be happy.


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